Dear Father,

It's a different thing these days,
When I talk to you,
My burden doesn't leave
Neither does the grief.

Abba, when you teach;
I sit and learn at Your feet.
Abba, I will walk in all Your ways.
Because,
Everything You do, and Every Word You say,
Moulds a part of this clay.

To get rid of who I am,
And to forget of what I need.
But to hold the feet of Jesus,
For His forgiveness I cry and plead.

I want to come to You;
Not 'coz someone's watching,
Not 'coz it's the rule,
Not 'coz I need to cry,
And not just 'coz I want to feel alright.

But I want to enjoy,
The presence of Your grace
And enter into the Most Holy place
I am coming in, Father
To see you
To feel you
To touch you, O Lord.
At Your Glory to gaze
And let my heart be amazed...

Totally Random

When I'm walking through fire
Help me remember
that You put me in there.
Oh God when I see the glassy sea
right beneath my feet..
I remember Lord, that I'm staggering forward
Towards Your plans for me

Help me to wait Lord
As I watch Your glory reveal
To seek You more than yesterday
Getting closer to Your heartbeat

Coz' while it seems like I am waiting
I know that you are working
You neither sleep nor rest
Lord please help me to see
That You'll always be
Better than my very best...

But I won't give up

Did David write his psalms,

knowing that one day it would be read

by another going through just what he had felt.

Am writing this..just like David...

Knowing that its only a whine..

But hoping secretly it would someday sometime

Help someone see a silver line.

Time is running

But I am not.

Haven't turned a soul to You.

The things I've been denied

Never hurt at all..

But it pricks real hard

When I think of those that I am due.

I wonder if it's my guilt

or the devil who's lost and shamed

what's paralysing me ?

That I cannot move forward and heal the pain.

I'm longing for a future

That I have no hope to see

I'm longing to transform that life

That I don't know how to reach

Help me Lord

I don't know how to pray..

I don't know what to ask...

But I won't give up.

Why writing is important to me.

I wanted a dream

I held so dear

All other things

I never cared

But when it did not happen

I took life as it came

Coz my heart wasn’t ready

To take another blame

So I stopped to dream…

When you came by,

I did not realize

But you’ve given meaning

To my useless life

Every time I had,

My moments with you

I could see that I wasn’t a waste

And dreams can come true.

Please don’t go away from me,

Even when I’m not fair

Don’t leave,

Because it is only in your face

I see,

A reason to believe.

Dear God, (II)

I'm sorry for the questions asked
I'm sorry for being rude
I'm sorry for being bitter inside
I'm sorry that I didn't depend on You.

I'm sorry for forgetting Your Love
Your ultimate Sacrifice
I'm sorry that I worried so much
Thinking that Your Grace won't suffice.

I'm sorry I thought that I'm all grown up
And become so mature in faith;
That I dared to push Your plans behind
And let my desires take its place.

I'm sorry for the grumbling
I'm sorry that I blamed
All the blessings in my life
To be the reason for my pain

Lord, please forgive me
And give me one more chance;
I'll remain in perfect peace.
Trusting You to meet more than
Just my daily needs.

Though I'm clumsy
Its because of You're Grace, I am called
To live for Your Glory
And to care for Your flock

Maybe not in ways
That I have dreamt it to be
But surely in Your mind
There is an assignment for me....

Dear God, (I)

My faith is frail,

My sight is failing;

Seems like my silence wont endure for long.

Help me worship

Give me the strength to work

Please keep me moving on.

Because when I am patient

I can see Your power

Through all life's troubled paths

When I obey without question

Then, I can see

Your Promise come to pass....

Wait to Understand

When the seas are raging
Thunder storms demoralize
I'm in your boat
And by your side.

I only need a Word to command the winds you see;
But I don't do it so fast
Because;
Then you'll take your eyes off me.

In the midst of the tempest
I love it when you cling to My arm
With lots of fear inside
Yet a tinge of faith that's still
And holding on.

I see beyond that plastic smile
Deeper than the reasons on your tongue
Your thoughts, before they were born
And the life for which you long

Your pain before it even hurts you
Unsaid prayers in the tears that run
The desires that's hidden in secret
And dreams that's lost and gone.

Sometimes I seem so far
But that's when I'm really near
And everytime you ask me "WHY";
To your finite mind,
My answer can't be clear.

That's why I want you to trust this life,
Every bit of it,
In my Hand.
Seek to hear My Voice
And just wait to understand...

Happy Birthday Annie

"A baby sister is born"
Was what that aunt said
I scratched my head
Wondering..
Shouldn't it have been a brother instead.
Coz thats what everyone was saying
And asked me to pray..
And I believed so much
That it was a brother on the way.

But who cares..I just needed a sibling
Someone with whom I can play
Someone to take to school with me..
And someone who listens to what I say.

Mummy kept telling me
That you're the answer to my prayer
That you are very precious
And a gift from God to treasure.

Very true to her word
A rare jewel you have been
Skipped our notice many times
Though, very obvious to be seen
Faithful to your Master
Holding on to your God
Turning your back on the world
And moving on
To obey His call.

Remember, He who called is faithful too
He has everything He needs;
To make His dream for you come true.

Humble yourself in His hand
And in His time you will see
The lives you were meant to change
And the reason you were called indeed.

Thank you so much....

For being my best friend
For bearing all my torture
For all the endless errands you've run
For being the only encouraging one
And knowing me as I want to be
For calling me Akka
A title, I'm so proud to receive.

I thank God so much
For your wisdom, beyond your years
I'm glad that you've become a woman of substance
And learnt so well to handle your fears.

You've asked me many times
To make my writing short
Girl, I did try a lot
Give me some time
Maybe I'll get it in my next shot

Dear one, you've grown

So beautifully indeed.
16 years have passed
But I can't forget that innocent thumb sucking face I know.

Happy Birthday Annie!!!!

Love,
Akka

The same prayer again..

Lord, you are never tired
But, if I was you
I'd be..
Because it is always the same prayer
That you receive
From me.

Prayer for a purpose
And an instrument to be
To know my Master's dream
And fulfill it
Through all my deeds.

A daughter to you, Father
Beating Your heart in mine
Seeing beyond the obvious
And to learn what's in Your mind

But just know this Lord;
That I'll never say "No"
To anything you say;
Yes, I'll throw a tantrum
But in the end, I will obey.

A pen;
Or a broom,
Anything I can be;
As long as I'm working for
Your demands.
Living every moment
With joy and satisfaction
That I'm used by my Master's Hand.

The Appointment

Many things I want to say...

Even though some are very deep

But still I wish I had a stage

To tell everyone how I feel.

Philosophical... Whew!! I wish I'm not!

But down to earth and true.

A crazy stop in the journey is over

And I'm being carried through.

Its a joy to look back

And even more joy to look ahead.

But right where I am.

I can't find the right emotion to shed.

Born for a Purpose,

That's greater than me

My life's insignificant

In the midst of the Light I see.

It gives me peace to know

That I belong to a bigger Plan.

That I am not alone

And every step is in His Hand.

There are dreams that I can carry

And there are ones I need to leave

NO matter what!!; I have a Father and Friend

Who can meet my every need.

When I didn't have a form

And not even a name

He gave me a job

And enough of His Grace.

I am standing and knocking at the door of a busy world

Waiting and watching, naive and swirled.

He picks me up, with a warm embrace.

And every doubt is gone...

When I see His Face.

faithful servant

Not another option

Lord I don't want many open doors

My life is Your breath in action

And it is Your will that I adore


When I look inside to feel

The deep desires in me

Roaring emotions slowly fade

And only the gentle sound of Your heartbeat remains.


Trying to focus,

And struggling to find.

The reason for my life.

Lord, what were your thoughts for me ?

When I was nowhere else but in Your mind.


Your perfect Life

Teaches me how to live and walk

Your selfless Death

Makes me wonder

Why did you care about me so much at all?

Your resurrection my King

Proves your power and dominion

Above all that I behold in awe.


Life goes on here for few years alone.

The rest I spend in an eternity

Irresistible though unknown


With arms open wide

Master you are waiting for me.

To show me my mansion

And Your Glory to reveal


When you behold me in your arms

I want you to say

“Well done faithful servant

You've always known my heart

And obeyed my voice

Even through troubled paths”


In this life Father

My strength will always fail.

Oh Lord, My Master

Let your Grace alone prevail.

My tummy's call

I heard my stomach growl
A shot of pain struck my head
My legs could only crawl
I didn’t know where I was going
But I kept moving on.

I reached a place where I could sit
And gobbled up all the food I could get.
And then I looked at my belly and said,

“You’re way too cruel man
You shouldn’t have treated me like that
Just to fulfill your hungry demands”

That’s when I heard my digestive tunes,
Tell the truth in full command.

“We saw what you did to your soul
When everything was in your control.
No food, No water.
And the pain you caused her.

You dumped her place with filth and foul matter
She struggled for air,
And sobbed lonely tears of despair
You froze her senses,
Just to fulfilled your immature pretenses,

A careless prayer was all you mumbled,
A perverse swear and a powerful grumble,
An arrogant mind.
And a trend in fashion.
A worthless ambition.
A Godless destination.

Now you complain,
That life’s a strain.
You’re totally depressed
And fuming out your stress

Every where you turn,
Your dreams have all been burned.
And then you point on HIGH,
Shouting, “WHERE’S MY REPLY ?”

I wonder if you are crazy;
You know that you have to eat,
when you’re head goes dizzy.
Don’t you know WHERE TO GO?
When your life’s all messy ?

Jesus is your Saviour
Only He gives life to your soul
Surrender to Him
And give Him total control

He knows the secret
And the guilt within
Yet, HIS LOVE is too powerful
To stay away from your sin

What He did on that Cross,
You thought was great history
But if you accept, believe and confess
Baby, It’ll change your destiny.”

Before I could burp,
I bowed my head to say;
I’m sorry,
I promise that its with You, Jesus that I will forever stay.

From Callie, With Love

Forgive me for boring
But you've always borne my painful art.
So I just take it for granted.

There were days I came to college
With a heavy heart.
There were days I felt my mind ripped apart.
My morning prayer would be filled with questions
That I never dared to ask

And we'd begin our normal chat
And we'll talk till our mouths run dry
I never wanted you to know my ugly heart
So everything would just stay inside.

But that's the miracle of our friendship
The one that He breathed into
He would speak into your heart
And the words would just fall through.

The very words that I needed to hear
The ones that heal and make light reappear.

I've always been proud and bold
You know why..?
Because my friends; I could always try..
They would never their affection withhold...
They would always protect me and love me
Even if; To others I looked cold.

I wonder how my life would have been
Without you guys...
With just mom, dad, sis and me
And everyday I say thank you
For this gracious gift that only few receive.

Its great to have fun
Its great to be together
But our lives are different.
And we may not always need each other.

Guys..God put us together
Not just for ourselves
But for Him and His great plan.
We've learnt a lot from each other.
And earned a lot more than we ever can.

Now its time to show the world the lessons we learnt.
To show those watching
That we're doing just what He dreamt.
That our friendship's was not a passing cloud.
But helped us each to build our life in the very way He loved.

I don't believe that its for us
The parting pain and the farewell cry.
It'll never end you know
The love and the joy..
And its true that we'll never know how to say good bye.

I hope that I never have to mail you with those dreadful words..
"I miss you man.."
But even if we move different ways.
I'd still be glad that you're in His hands.

I'm sorry guys
I tried really hard to give back
My best I did, to show you that I care.
But somehow I could never be fair.