Totally Random

When I'm walking through fire
Help me remember
that You put me in there.
Oh God when I see the glassy sea
right beneath my feet..
I remember Lord, that I'm staggering forward
Towards Your plans for me

Help me to wait Lord
As I watch Your glory reveal
To seek You more than yesterday
Getting closer to Your heartbeat

Coz' while it seems like I am waiting
I know that you are working
You neither sleep nor rest
Lord please help me to see
That You'll always be
Better than my very best...

But I won't give up

Did David write his psalms,

knowing that one day it would be read

by another going through just what he had felt.

Am writing this..just like David...

Knowing that its only a whine..

But hoping secretly it would someday sometime

Help someone see a silver line.

Time is running

But I am not.

Haven't turned a soul to You.

The things I've been denied

Never hurt at all..

But it pricks real hard

When I think of those that I am due.

I wonder if it's my guilt

or the devil who's lost and shamed

what's paralysing me ?

That I cannot move forward and heal the pain.

I'm longing for a future

That I have no hope to see

I'm longing to transform that life

That I don't know how to reach

Help me Lord

I don't know how to pray..

I don't know what to ask...

But I won't give up.

Why writing is important to me.

I wanted a dream

I held so dear

All other things

I never cared

But when it did not happen

I took life as it came

Coz my heart wasn’t ready

To take another blame

So I stopped to dream…

When you came by,

I did not realize

But you’ve given meaning

To my useless life

Every time I had,

My moments with you

I could see that I wasn’t a waste

And dreams can come true.

Please don’t go away from me,

Even when I’m not fair

Don’t leave,

Because it is only in your face

I see,

A reason to believe.

Dear God, (II)

I'm sorry for the questions asked
I'm sorry for being rude
I'm sorry for being bitter inside
I'm sorry that I didn't depend on You.

I'm sorry for forgetting Your Love
Your ultimate Sacrifice
I'm sorry that I worried so much
Thinking that Your Grace won't suffice.

I'm sorry I thought that I'm all grown up
And become so mature in faith;
That I dared to push Your plans behind
And let my desires take its place.

I'm sorry for the grumbling
I'm sorry that I blamed
All the blessings in my life
To be the reason for my pain

Lord, please forgive me
And give me one more chance;
I'll remain in perfect peace.
Trusting You to meet more than
Just my daily needs.

Though I'm clumsy
Its because of You're Grace, I am called
To live for Your Glory
And to care for Your flock

Maybe not in ways
That I have dreamt it to be
But surely in Your mind
There is an assignment for me....

Dear God, (I)

My faith is frail,

My sight is failing;

Seems like my silence wont endure for long.

Help me worship

Give me the strength to work

Please keep me moving on.

Because when I am patient

I can see Your power

Through all life's troubled paths

When I obey without question

Then, I can see

Your Promise come to pass....

Wait to Understand

When the seas are raging
Thunder storms demoralize
I'm in your boat
And by your side.

I only need a Word to command the winds you see;
But I don't do it so fast
Because;
Then you'll take your eyes off me.

In the midst of the tempest
I love it when you cling to My arm
With lots of fear inside
Yet a tinge of faith that's still
And holding on.

I see beyond that plastic smile
Deeper than the reasons on your tongue
Your thoughts, before they were born
And the life for which you long

Your pain before it even hurts you
Unsaid prayers in the tears that run
The desires that's hidden in secret
And dreams that's lost and gone.

Sometimes I seem so far
But that's when I'm really near
And everytime you ask me "WHY";
To your finite mind,
My answer can't be clear.

That's why I want you to trust this life,
Every bit of it,
In my Hand.
Seek to hear My Voice
And just wait to understand...

Happy Birthday Annie

"A baby sister is born"
Was what that aunt said
I scratched my head
Wondering..
Shouldn't it have been a brother instead.
Coz thats what everyone was saying
And asked me to pray..
And I believed so much
That it was a brother on the way.

But who cares..I just needed a sibling
Someone with whom I can play
Someone to take to school with me..
And someone who listens to what I say.

Mummy kept telling me
That you're the answer to my prayer
That you are very precious
And a gift from God to treasure.

Very true to her word
A rare jewel you have been
Skipped our notice many times
Though, very obvious to be seen
Faithful to your Master
Holding on to your God
Turning your back on the world
And moving on
To obey His call.

Remember, He who called is faithful too
He has everything He needs;
To make His dream for you come true.

Humble yourself in His hand
And in His time you will see
The lives you were meant to change
And the reason you were called indeed.

Thank you so much....

For being my best friend
For bearing all my torture
For all the endless errands you've run
For being the only encouraging one
And knowing me as I want to be
For calling me Akka
A title, I'm so proud to receive.

I thank God so much
For your wisdom, beyond your years
I'm glad that you've become a woman of substance
And learnt so well to handle your fears.

You've asked me many times
To make my writing short
Girl, I did try a lot
Give me some time
Maybe I'll get it in my next shot

Dear one, you've grown

So beautifully indeed.
16 years have passed
But I can't forget that innocent thumb sucking face I know.

Happy Birthday Annie!!!!

Love,
Akka